Know....

What I know...what I suspect...what is fact....how often we sift and stir thoughts that swirl inside our minds refusing to go quietly into that good night. Waking during the night I laid under cozy covers and listened to the wind soughing outside my window, tinkling my brightly coloured Mexican wind chimes. I question the reason for waking until I let it go and just sigh as I go deeper under the blankets. I think on my children...I pray for their continued growth, for the bonds they're forging to be tighter, stronger than titanium lasting them for the many years to come. I think on the one I left behind...forgiveness wars with disgust until prayer takes over and drops the thought to the ground until God can appear to take it up...

I think on my time with family over the weekend, the caring for children, the laughter and talks amidst dogs running circles round us all.

I do not know the future....I have left the past behind only to have it pop up and demand attention. Death does that...it prompts reflection, cries out for attention, displays memories across the backs of eyelids in dolby surround sound and super technicolor quality.

My mind has been on overload for days and I wonder why at some point it just shuts off in protection, in the need of quiet contemplation filtering out only top priority thoughts...such as what to wear for work tomorrow...what to pack for lunch...sleep, yes sleep a good shut-off valve.

The mind is a funny organ...neural pathways running this way and that firing up more neural fireworks until under MRI or CT the brain would be a hotshot full of light and colour pinging off every point of the cranium. I see now the work that God has done...the consistent discipline of ordering the mind, of cataloguing and filing away...of setting aside until such a time an issue can be dealt with...of speaking to worries and intrusive thoughts and laying them down to picked up later.

Despite what we hear, what we come to know...we do have the innate ability to set things aside, to allow time for full understanding and wisdom. Oh, do not be fooled, I have moments I fail...times I ride the worry train...but dear hearts, it comes less and less.

With each step taken in faith and hope and scraps of courage, I see strength of will grow stronger...I see ground gained....

There is nothing too big for God...no one too scary...He laughs in the face of fear....He loves in the face of despair...He gathers close and comforts those who mourn, who grieve...

Nothing too big...ever. Waymaker....He will make a way for you....Miracle worker...He will work miracles in your circumstances......Light in the darkness...no matter where you go, how deep you fall, He is there...shining a light to guide the way. How He loves you...for He created you fearfully and wonderfully well.

Walk tall today dear hearts and stand proud, speaking your truth with grace and mercy...with dignity and courage. May God keep His angels watching over you, keeping you safe and guiding each step.