Love

July 24th

love.... I WILL love again, and be loved for who I am in all my weirdness and free spirit. Love conquers all, trumps all evil, does not bow to fear and encompasses every obstacle with patience and grace. This, this is who I want to be. Brave, free and a lil bit wild.

The dichotomy is that while being open to love and giving freely is the need for boundaries. Not walls so much as clear lines drawn in the sand that state 'no trespassing,' or 'DANGER!! do not proceed past this point.'

These are healthy boundaries. The boundaries that teach others to treat us with respect.

If these lines in the sand are crossed, it's really rather simple isn't it?

If and when those lines are crossed, we withdraw our affection and most importantly our time. My goal and concrete resolution is that I will draw these lines in the sand and I will safeguard my heart from the evil that lives in some people. The kind of evil that wants to break down the loving, outgoing, compassionate and brave souls that love with all their hearts.

'Walk softly and carry a big stick,' dear hearts.

(Theodore Roosevelt)

Protect your hearts and be courageous.... be the woman/man that you needed when you were a child, or more aptly, the person you needed when in the midst of the shitstorm that is/was your relationship with the abuser. Be THAT person! You can do it, I believe you can do it!

I'm so proud of you everyday that you wake up, get dressed and carry out the things you need to do. So proud that you continue to love and give despite the pain you feel inside.

Don't give up my dear friends. There IS freedom on the other side of your pain, on the other side of your debilitating fear. There truly is. I am living it right now.

oh, I still fear. He makes sure of that. I have much to tell but will leave the crazy stories for my next entry. For now.... walk on. You've got this!