Test...

Each morning....tested and tried....consistently tested mentally....look back....look to the left, look to the right....and steady on to the day and into the night setting my heart on looking ahead...and as my Dear friend reminded me, remembering to be in the present moment. Yesterday is gone, forever...never to return and thank God. Those life lessons are no longer meant for me.

Today is finite....it passes in a breath, in a blink, in laughter and moments of joy.

Tomorrow cannot be changed until it is present....tomorrow will unfold as it wills and will take care of itself.

Do not mishear me my friends...there is preparation, and setting your mind on goals, on dreams, on aspirations and the work that must be done to achieve them, however...we truly have no control over the future, only today and what we must do to ready ourselves for the next day...and the day after.

'The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry...' Robert Burns. (circa 1785).

Today I declare peace, I declare joy, I declare the plans and dreams set before me...and ready myself for the future, for growth, for love...

Dear hearts, dear treasures....pull that foot out of the grave....erect a wall between you and the past, build a barrier so high nothing will get through. No feelings of pity...no viewing through the rose coloured lens of a love that wasn't real. It serves you no longer.

It was a lie...and is a lie for the next in line...and the next...and the next.

Do you see? Do you truly see the person behind the smile, behind the charm, behind the lies that come with every opening of their mouths? The Shine of the new, the exciting will wear off and then your pity, your compassion, your kindness will be needed for what you know comes next. Degradation, belittling, betrayal, disloyalty, verbal and mental abuses, physical abuses....the whole gamut of what you lived through will make its way around the wheel once again. There is no stepping off that crazy train my friends. It is their very survival...as necessary as breathing....the shiny will wear off, the exciting new will fade, the judgements have already begun...the words couched in a joking manner...the comparisons to other women...the women in secret living online awaiting his attention as it wanes with the new.

This...must be buried in order to move on with a life filled with purpose....with true love...with kindness and compassion. Dear lost ones....you are destined for more, for better...

There is a life awaiting you round that next corner, over that next rise....and it is full....full of joy, of compassion, of a love beyond imagining. For you...for me...for all...

Go with God today and know your worth...and move on, move up, move away from the one who would rejoice knowing he kept your attention despite his mean mongering...despite causing such grief and sorrow.

You are better than that....destined for better than what you left behind in your rear view...

Oh the joy! I can attest my friends...it is good...it is filled with laughter, with love, with grace and mercy. God would have you come and drink from living waters...from what brings life not steals it away, bit by bit, inch by inch.

Take your ground back...Go with God today and each day forward and watch for the light at the end of the tunnel...it beckons and promises a peace that passes all understanding, joy unspeakable and a perfect love that casts out all fear.

Stand tall dear ones...walk proud...and hold your beautiful head high.