Battered but not Beaten

August 14th

'When I run out air to breathe its your Ghost I see.....' RagnBone Man - Skin

Even now after all this time I still think of him. Daily... moment by moment.

This is changing though. Slowly but oh so surely I am leaving that behind. I questioned whether I loved him at all after the reading I've done on Trauma Bonding. Oh the love is there and always will be, however, I am learning to love me more and no longer will I settle for that kind of treatment.

He beat me because of his own shame, belittled and verbally abused me because of his own guilt, Emotionally and mentally abused me because of the sickness, regrets and remorse HE felt inside.

Never forget, dear ones, that they tear you down to build themselves back up. They do it knowingly and unknowingly I believe. Part of them knows how they hurt you and then they have to live with that along with their own shame and guilt. It's a cesspool in their Minds and hearts, a cesspool that has built since the moment they experienced trauma as a child.

They are a broken, fractured child inhabiting an adults body.

Stay strong dear hearts and survive.