Big Little Miracles...

The page blurs as I write this morning...tears of joy, of thankfulness, of a heart filled to overflowing with gratitude to a God who moves mountains, drags me out of the valleys and swims beside me in oceans of tears...once more I am reminded of a 'knowing' that God is a very real and present force within my life...

I write this morning for the express purpose of relaying this miracle...it may seem small to some but a debt equalling hundreds of dollars was waved...caput, gone as if it never existed. I did not go into the phone call with doubt where my Heavenly Father is concerned, more so with whomever I would be transferred to...I said a small prayer for the right person and after being transferred the requisite amount of times, lest we all get bored only talking to a singular human being, I landed with a kind woman who listened to my story and with no problem at all set about ridding my account of this debt.

That, my friends, is a Big Little Miracle...I feel like scrooge McDuck doing the backstroke in his money vault....like Rocky reaching the uppermost step of the Philadelphia Museum of Art, hands raised in the air in triumph and absolute joy...

Miracles do happen dear treasures...the first Big miracle happened when I escaped death at the hands of my abuser...each day since has been a procession of large and small miracles coming just when I need them...each day has been a series of learning curves, valleys, road rash and mending of broken pieces...

There is a way...for each one...a way forward, miles upon miles further and further from the reach of the evil perpetrated upon your person by the monster parading as a charming human being. No matter how far down the rabbit hole you have gone, how dark and dastardly the environment you sit in...He is there; a thought, a wish, a prayer away...closer than a brother, a true forever friend who wades into the ugliness that surrounds you, wicked and ignoble deeds hemming one in on all sides, until you know not up from down, left from right...He is there...never alone lost ones, never forgotten...

You are not hidden

"There's never been a moment

You were forgotten

You are not hopeless

Though you have been broken

Your innocence stolen

I hear you whisper underneath your breath

I hear your SOS, your SOS

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

There is no distance

That cannot be covered

Over and over

You're not defenseless

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your armor." Rescue - Lauren Daigle

He is your hiding place...your place of refuge...

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

Fear is an overwhelming presence, a formidable force to be reckoned with until the person in your life doing damage becomes larger than life...the truth is dear friends, they are scared to the very core of their being of anything connected to intimacy, to vulnerability...

They tell you to 'pay no attention to the man behind the curtain,' (Wizard of Oz) while they hide and scheme and plot out their evil machiavellian machinations...

Smoke and mirrors to hide the perverse nature hidden with the man...slight of hand to conceal the betrayals happening right under your nose...straight up rage when you have the audacity to question them or their behaviours...until one day you find yourself in survival mode, slinking about like a mouse deathly afraid of the evil cat licking its chops in anticipation.

You are worth more than that...worthy of love, of trust, of loyalty, of commitment, of a safe place to land...

Insidious rage is not your lot in life...poisonous hatred is not for a queen such as you...beatings and verbal beat downs are NOT for you, or. you, or you....

Each one deserving of protection, of feeling safe within their own home, of God Damn PEACE...truly...

May God richly bless you today and each day forward with a spark of hope, with a dream and goal of a future filled with laughter and joy...of love that follows actions...words be damned...they mean nothing, less than nothing....every time they open their mouth, lies pour forth meant to coerce, convince, cajole, constrain, demean and devalue until you lie in a puddle on the ground, lost to the feeling of despair and sorrow filling your days....

Live dear friends...live life and find your way clear, wisely and safely....you are worth it.