Brighter Days

Oh how I lay here and try to stem the tears that won't fall from my eyes...

The sobs that wrack my body as I try to breathe through the pain, the loneliness, the absolutely overwhelming feeling of loss and grief.

The song 'Brighter Days' came on YouTube and I began to cry...

Today has been a exhausting day of events and emotional upheaval, as well as a step in the right direction of independence.....

I weep, yet weep not.

He taught me that skill... to rage and scream and sob inside where he couldn't hear the pain...

Tears filling my eyes but not spilling over,

I could hide those for he rarely truly saw me.

I am undone...

But I will stand again.