Built For This....

This morning the coffee is...more. As each day passes taste slowly returns...joy in the littlest of things, returns. The view of the glorious morning sky reflecting the suns rays in the brightest of pinks...the feel of cool sheets as I wake and stretch...the sound of the kettle boiling, the smell of coffee brewing...that first taste of hot heaven sliding across the tongue...

We are built for this.... Chandler Moore:

'There's no battle That I'm not built for I'm flesh and blood But that's not my war Mountain moments or valley seasons Come whatever Greater lives within

And I was built for this From the start it was finished In this world I don't fit But in your arms I was made for this So I've survived worse than this Oh, I was made in your image I was built for this

Disappointment Is meant for your glory Old times teach you More than the hike

There's a lesson in what you suffer Oh my child, hold on longer And you'll see

You were built for this From the start you were finished In this world you don't fit But in his arms you were made for this I survived much more than this You're made in his image You were built for this

You won't tear me down No you won't, no, aah You won't tear me down No you won't, no 'Cause I won't let you

You won't tear me down No you won't, no I'm stronger than that, I'm stronger, I'm stronger You won't tear me down No you won't, no 'Cause I won't let you

You won't tear me down inside You won't tear me down No you won't tear me down, no You won't tear me down No you won't, no 'Cause I won't let you

You won't tear me down No you won't, no I'm stronger than this, I'm better than this, oh You won't tear me down No you won't, no 'Cause now I see I was built for this

From the start it was finished In this world I don't fit But in your arms I was made for this I've survived worse, worse than this Oh, my God I was made in your image I was built for this'

We didn't ask for the pain, the anguish, the sorrow, the battles...no...but we were built for this and it is time to stand and speak dear friends. It is time to embrace all we are, all those characteristics that shone a light for the abuser and yet provoked and drove him to acts of violence...drove him to subjugate, to control and extinguish the light that shines within you.

Take up that light once more dear dear friends....pick yourself up off that floor, climb out of that perilous pit, dust yourself off and with head held high walk out your journey.

You are capable....

You are everything he said you weren't....we will not let them tear us down..

You are brave....You are kind and true....

Those broken pieces will mend into something stronger, something mightier than you've ever known. You may ask...'how do I know?'

I know...with every fibre of my being that I am gaining ground every miserly minute of every damn day...

I know because the mountain is high and near unscalable, and I feel each and every inch of ground gained....

I know because the walls of that putrid pit the monster threw me in are slick with sorrow, slippery with regrets, sharp with frustration and injustice....each slip, trip and fall result in cuts, bruises, callouses and tears...

The tears of frustration when the thing I've battled my whole life to avoid lives and breathes front and centre within my heart and mind and soul and spirit....emotion....

A variety and cacophony of emotions all screaming out to be heard, again and again and again until the wound is finally excised, cauterized and scarred over.

Hear my heart dear survivors, dear friends and family....it is a daily journey, a minute by moment journey on an ocean of rogue waves, whirlpools and monsters...

“You're off the edge of the map, mate.Here there be monsters.”

We sail into uncharted territory....foray into foreign lands, lands that no longer look nor feel familiar. Patience...an unlimited supply of patience is required, as necessary for success as much as love and compassion.

'Do not go gentle into that good night,

Old age should burn and rave at close of day;

Rage, rage against the dying of the light.' Dylan Thomas

Stand tall, stand true...you have within you every tool, every strength, every ability to overcome. You have come so far....turn and look behind you, a glance over your shoulder, a peek into the past days, months or years....do you see? You have scaled mountains! You have broken barriers of stone down and used them to walk across boggy ground threatening to swallow you up...You have beaten back the darkness, the tempting alluring bleakness of night and awaited dawn to break in a promise of goodness, of joy and a hope in the future.

You....you have done all of this while loving, while smiling, while extending kindnesses, while hugging your children....you have ridden into battle like a warrior Queen of old and held back the forces of evil....you have taken up your sword of Truth and slayed the demons with Angels of God at your side, behind you and before you. Protected...covered...

Oh the things I have seen, heard and witnessed...the evil I have seen squashed, the path of a rock suspended before the hit...I believe, truly, in the beauty and goodness of God...for I have seen, much...

Do not give up now dear friends....the war is not complete but you have come so far...so far that you glimpse the light of dawn, the light of love, the light of glory...the glory of overcoming the enemy in their chosen camp.

You are able, you are capable....you needs only set your mind in the direction you wish to go, and watch God work. Watch your strength grow, watch your fear fly in the face of such determination and perseverance...

Go now dear hearts and live....go now and love with all you have....you have much to give and in giving see the mountains sink away, see the valleys abundant with good things...

See your feet become hinds feet in High places (Hannah Hurnard)...scaling every rock face with a nimbleness of thought and deed...

I love you...I pray for your peace, your safety, your hearts....May Gods love wrap round about you as comfy as a coat of the softest fur...May He make His face to shine upon you this day and every day. You are loved dear hearts...you are not alone...we stand with you, beside you and know your pain, your suffering and choose to share it with you...set it aside now, lay it down and take up your birthright of joy, peace, happiness, goodness, kindness.... This, this is what you are meant for. Not for abuse, NO. For goodness and all that is lovely.