Dear God, it's me.... Alive and well thanks to you.

Lovely people with broken hearts, minds and souls.... there IS hope. I made it out.... again. After going back against my better judgement (and others) and believing the lies told, things escalated quickly. The monster came out within the first few days, then at a couple weeks and so on until it reached a climax where I was threatened in a myriad of creative ways. The newest creative threat?

'When I get back I'm going to burn you down with the house.'

That one had me running for the door as soon as I had a sliver of time and leaving with only the clothes on my back.

The abuser in question is now charged with Assault and Death threats and will have his day in court and God willing be placed in Jail and perhaps learn some valuable lesson in how to treat women with respect.

I hope and pray that he never gets the chance to hurt another woman, ever.

The difference between this time and the last time I was with him and suffering physical, mental, emotional and verbal abuse? I got it on camera.

I was so afraid that I decided to grab the GoPro, (I bought the camera for him to video his work and put it on YouTube ironic yes?) and turned it on. Twice I did this, for the two times he went crazy and had me running for my life.

I left with the clothes on my back and that GoPro. Video evidence. Hard to defend yourself when you're live on camera. Sweet lil baby Jesus. I pray everyday that He will get the help and the Justice he deserves.

Will I ever stop loving someone so evil? I hope so. I truly do. However, I know the deepest part of my heart that I can say NEVER going back. Ever.

Stay safe dear hearts.