Downtime....

It is a morning for reflection...quiet, sitting with music playing softly and a cup of hot coffee in my hand I turn back and look...again....

And I turn right back around....no more looking back...not in the sense that I am going to plow through recrimination after recrimination, regret after regret...the question of why I wasn't smarter, wiser, stronger...why I didn't love myself enough to stay true to my path...my ideas, my dreams, my goals....stricken and shunted aside....

For what? For pain...for heartache...for sorrow.

No...today I take a trip to the big city for a refresher course and a plan to realign my life to meet up with my goals and dreams...

Downtime will come as my life begins to turn on that rusty wheel....the groans of growth...the pain of persistence...the frailty of my faith....God knows, He knows our hearts, our minds...and LOVES unceasing.

I see a path full of joy, full of laughter...a path where dreams do come true....a path that speaks to truth and stands for all that is good...a path that leads to love, true love, real love.

I see a path of little resistance...a path free of fear...free of anxiety...

I see a path free of obstruction and pitfalls....

oh yes...life can be hard...but regular hardships, regular worries....

This is a new chapter and I will begin and end it with joy unceasing and with a thankful heart...