Equalizer...

Fourteen days of 12 hrs/day have come to an end...until the next call if I receive one, but by the looks of the days ahead BC is not out of the woods just yet...no pun intended. I am tired and yet satisfied, fulfilled...I was pushed out of one more comfort zone...from quiet solitude amidst God's creation to rooms within filled with bodies coming and going from all walks of life, to the outdoor space being taken up by heli's and fixed wings coming and going, the wump wump of rotors turning as they fly in close to the building for refuelling...the cacophony of men and women involved in planning, in strategizing the fight for our forests...the tired, sooty yet triumphant faces of young men and women coming in for a night of food and sleep...

I felt exhausted often..slightly overwhelmed at moments...the brain pushed to capacity, dreams of numbers, names, equipment, fallers and contractors floating through my mind...

This morning, after a day of rest, I contemplate justice...I contemplate my faith in God...I ruminate over my lack of belief some days...this morning I saw a trailer for the newest of Denzel's Equalizer franchise and wondered...had a moment of despair that justice will ever come for women in the worst of circumstances...the words that filtered through my mind in that moment were; 'God is our Equalizer...'

Dear hearts...we have the best of equalizers on our side...

'Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.' Romans 12:19.

Once again I look to the future and declare that I will live in the present moment...allowing joy, inviting peace, asking grace and mercy to follow my steps...

Once again I leave the past where it belongs...in the past...taking the mistakes, taking the lessons and leaving the rest behind to slowly dissipate until it is gone forever....never to rise again to bother, to smother my peace...

Dear treasures....cling to this one thing...God is a just God....He loves you with a love beyond compare...He sees you, knows you down to the last hair on your head...every part of you loved, cherished and made in His image...you are worthy of so much more than what you think...if I could impart one thing it would be to allow yourself to be happy, to stand for you...herein lies your path to justice, to safety, to peace, to joy, to that light at the end of the tunnel... standing for that woman within you crying out for what is right, what is true...

One step at a time dear friends...one handhold at a time climbing out of the pit you have been thrown into until you can see the light of grace, the light of freedom from fear and torment.

Stand for you dear hearts...stand tall, walk proud...shoulders back, head held high....walk out your journey, walk it out in the sure knowledge that you are not alone, that you are worthy of so much more and that you will make it...no matter the odds...no matter the mountain placed in front of you. The God of creation will make a way...

“Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.'

Mark 11:23.

I will believe for the mountain to be moved...I will believe for a grand and wonderful future, for to do any less would be a win for the monster...to do any less would be letting myself down, letting that young child continue to suffer in silence...

Step out in faith with me my friends and see the future is good, the possibilities endless....

Go with God today and every day forward knowing your worth...when you look in the mirror I pray you see what He sees...I pray you see what those around you see...the lovely, shining heart that lives within you, the beauty others see and the comfort you bring to others around you...needed, necessary and essential.

May you see the beauty in all things around you...the blue blue sky, the cool breeze on your skin, the smile of the neighbour as he waves good morning, the bright explosion of colour of flowers outside your door, the purr of a kitten laying on your lap, the aroma of hot coffee first thing in the morning, the first exquisite sip....so many beautiful moments to lift your spirits out of the depths...may you take these in and grow in joy, in grace and mercy...

Remember dear hearts...love saves us...forgiveness releases us...grace and mercy relieve us....the heart moves from darkness to light...flowering, blooming, soaking in the sunshine...blossoming in an environment of acceptance, love and kindness...