Gains...losses...

Its back to the regular job for me this morning...rather than feeling rested however, I feel groggy and bleary as I sit and sip my first cup of heaven...steam rises as I blow on the heat and attempt to do the same with my brain and the last cobwebby trails floating throughout....I woke throughout the night chasing dreams, no...rather pushing, driving, shoving them away even as I sat up and pushed the covers away, walking and willing whatever was plaguing my mind, my heart, my spirit in the wee hours of the morning to vacate.

Rising from the depths like leviathans let loose from captivity... emotions running rampant, memories and snapshot moments...not the good kind...

Dear hearts...on those days pay no attention to the man behind the curtain (Wizard of Oz)...he is a liar and seeks destruction, seeks sorrow and sadness, seeks despair....

I question, as the mind is want to do, but set it aside....after a short turn around the coziness of my house I crawl back beneath the covers and claim sleep, a sleep free from duress...free from memories...free from torment and sorrow...

I pray...I turn to God...

I seek answers within...I pull the heart, the spirit, the mind together and pursue truth...it can be painful in its own right...truth is a mirror and if asked to show up, will shine upon the darkest of corners, the deepest of fears....there are days I shut it down, exhausted from the dredging of ground, soft though it is from ploughing and turning.

Some days dear friends it is ok to take a break, to rest in the Father...to find comfort and solace...

I pray for your continued strength, for your courage in the face of whatever giants you face...

I pray for hope, for joy in the midst of your circumstances. I pray you stand tall and walk proud, knowing your worth dear warriors.