I do not know...

Wind blows, stirs, sifts, pushes and gently prods the wayward, weary soul...

It sifts through memory and thought; stirs up emotions until small tornadoes appear to clean, to scatter to four corners of the universe all that holds us back, that keep us mired in lies, shame, sorrow and pain.

I do not know how this wind begins, but I know from whence it comes...

Psalm 104:4

"He makes the winds his messengers, flames of fire his servants."

I do not know the future, instead I place faith in a God who never forsakes, who never leaves...

I place faith in a God who has been a constant presence through every heartache, each and every strike against my person, health, mental and emotional state.

Though I may land hard upon the ground, though I may find myself seemingly irrevocably lost, I am never alone.

Though I may feel loneliness creep in as a thief in the night, threatening to overwhelm and overcome, I know without a shadow of a doubt I have a Father who loves me without reservation or condition.

In these moments of sorrow, of loneliness, I cry out to God and He reminds me of who I am and who I have in my corner.

My friends, each one of us has someone on this earth who loves us...who holds us in high regard...who needs us here in this moment of time.

It is to these few forever people in my life that I cast my thoughts; as God flashes a playbook of tender moments, hilarious moments of shared laughter and love; and I am filled with a light so bright it chases back the darkness that threatens to steal all joy, all love.

If we search, we will find.

If we seek, we will find.

Love...

Compassion...

Kindness...

If we give out, we reap.

If we extend love, we see love returned.

Filling up heart and soul...

Our tomorrow is often uncertain...for those going through the process of healing, of finding self amongst the rubble, amongst the broken pieces left us.

Our future is often unknown...but there is one who knows, who sees, who protects...

No matter your belief; be it agnostic, atheism, christianity, buddhism...no matter...there is one who loves you so completely it defies description.

Every part of this journey over the last few years has been one of miracles, of epiphanies, of direction and protection.

Each part of YOUR journey will be full of miracles, of learning, of understanding, of compassion and kindnesses, when you need them most.

I do know that it is easy to scoff, to roll the eyes, to humour these types of declarations...until you've gone through something so tragic, so traumatic, so contrary to all one has known before, and then...

And then the supernatural, the unexplainable happens...

The hands release their grip round the neck...

The rock held high, the eyes full of hate...pause...hesitate...

And I live, I breathe to see another day...

My encouragement to each lost one, each survivor today, is this; no one can tell you the HOW in healing, no one can tell you what path to take, and they shouldn't.

Indeed...they should not...for each one of us is made so intrinsically different from the other.

That twelve step program that worked for your friend, may not work for you...

That specific therapy stratagem may work for your neighbour, but not for you.

WE find the way that works for our heart, our mind, our spirit...

So dear treasures...find YOUR way...find your path...your truth...and cling to it; until head emerges from underwater, until heart finds joy once again, until eyes find beauty in the smallest of moments.

These tiny slices of time sustain, grow, until becoming second nature and with astonishment, find ourselves standing atop the insurmountable mountain.

Impossible becomes possible...

Improbable becomes probable...

God keep you safe during your times of trouble, may you be held close through darkness that threatens to consume, until light comes shining through storm clouds of black, illuminating all that is good, all that is possible just for you.

May your heart mend in the softest of moments; a kind word, a gentle smile, a surfeit of grace and mercy, compassion and love.

May you be surrounded with love that heals as often as it breathes upon you...filling every crack, gluing every piece back in place.

God keep you.