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Morning slowly peeks its head over the eastern horizon as I sip my second cup of heaven and contemplate all that is good in my life. Amazing job in incredibly serene scenery...family and a few true forever friends that love me, for me. Good food to eat...occasional drinks with downtime, time spent in the sun on a beach with toes in the sand...

No matter what is occurring extraneously in the orbit round my usual life happenings, here I find peace...here I find joy and absolute contentment in the present moment.

A part of me had momentarily forgotten the wisdom of being present in each moment...too many bees buzzing for my attention, working on worry and anxiety...spotlighting like fireflies, the issues at hand...

On that beach I remembered how to breathe...re-learned how to release on the gentle wind blowing off the water...sat with my thoughts and allowed them to flow in and flow out in time with the waves tickling my feet....in, swish and rinse and repeat...and breathe out all the negatives, all the anxieties, every part of grief and sorrow tracking down my cheeks and drying in the warmth of the sun.

Ah dear hearts...find your go-to for release, for peace...I find it in nature...for others it may be a walk in a noisy city...the sounds and sights of a fast-paced life ebbing and flowing around them...in a paddle on a calm lake...with a fishing pole in hand, casting for that legendary ole trout grown bigger with each tale of lost lures and hooks...

For each of us it will be something different, hitting us each in various ways in differing levels...my encouragement is this...find it and let it come...let the thoughts come, let the memories wash over and through you on their way out. It may take days, weeks, months...but each step on the path of release is a victory over what would chain us to that pit we left behind.

Oh yes...my heart aches at times, knocks hollowly at inconvenient moments...my friends the truth will set us free. God knows our hearts, knows mine backwards and forwards as I hold it up like a book and rifle through the pages, saying 'look...see God? There are my innermost thoughts and deepest desires..known to you and only you.' 'Here is my pain...my sorrow....here is my joy, my thankfulness, my gratitude...'

In all things uphold the truth...speak it...think it...embrace it...this is the shining beacon in the night that will guide you forward...this is where God resides...in your truth, in your praises, in your grace and loving kindnesses....

I go today to walk a friends dog while they are gone...for the next four days and I look forward to the time outside with the company of God's gift to mankind...unconditional love and happiness in the form of a canine...priceless.

I go today in prayer for your struggle, for your need for a way out...Miracle worker, Waymaker, light in the darkness...may this be your mantra today and each day as you find your way free from torment, from the filth and muck you have been thrown into. May you find your path, your journey to healing and love immeasurable, unfathomable and miraculous. You are worthy dear treasures, each one. Worthy, capable and courageous...walk tall, stand proud and speak your truth with grace, with dignity, with love and forgiveness. You are worth it.