Low Days

July 3rd

Beautiful sunny days can be the worst. I look outside and think I should get out there and soak up some vitamin D and you know what? Sometimes I do, but the last couple of days have been the hardest yet.

Why do we miss the person who hurt us more than anyone else has ever been able to do? I will always love him but I know in my heart that it will never work. He is 45 years old and that saying that you can't teach an old dog new tricks.... its fairly apt in this case. He had been blowing his way through the women before me and most likely after me for this long, why in the hell would he change now?

So today, I allow myself to feel and to let the tears come and hopefully wash away all the sorrow and hurt and pain I feel.

Dear hearts continue to be strong. Don't give up.