Make a Way...

He always makes a way....as I wake throughout the night this phrase and 'waymaker' echo within my mind...resonate in my spirit. Plagued by dreams showcasing, like I didn't have enough memories in technicolor that rise to the surface far too regularly, betrayal and sorrow deep enough to drown in I woke in a cloud of grief, of heartache... fatigue hits as the days of work and play have come and gone with no break in sight, a cold bug weighing down my body along with sore muscles from baseball and the emotional state of stepping out of fear and into trust, into faith, into strength and courage by playing a tournament in close proximity to the person in my story and still, I wonder at the why of having so many emotions crowding my mind...some days I confess to being a tad slow on the uptake when it comes to my own mental state. Living a life of pushing feelings, emotions and hardships down to deal with and dissect later...much later...is a habit I try mightily to break.

So...in faith and thankfulness I hand it all over...turn on the worship music that inspires and motivates and let the tears fall, washing away the pain...the anxiety...the consistent questioning... seeking the truth, seeking healing on this journey, seeking to put behind me the battering ram of internal bruises left behind...

My friends, this morning I urge and encourage you to take the time necessary to let it come, to let your mind rest in Him...to find comfort and solace, mercy and grace, compassion and limitless love...it only waits your focus, the turning of your mind to a peace that passes all understanding.

'Turn your eyes upon Jesus,

Look full in His wonderful face,

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,

In the light of His glory and grace.' Natalie Grant

'There is no shadow He won't light up....No wall He won't kick down, coming after me...'

He is faithful...the reckless love of God never ends, never gives up, never accepts defeat nor rejection. This...this is where I have found my peace, my minds salvation from the enemy within and without...the mental anguish....the heartache....all encompassing love has covered the wounds, the grief, the loss. This is His promise to us, we are His children and will remain so til the day we die and on into infinity. This I know...I have experienced miracles on a supernatural level...I cannot explain, can only state the knowledge I have deep within my heart, my spirit.

We are, each one of us, His children. So stand tall dear broken and lost, for you are found and in fact have never been lost to the one who loves you with such fervour, with such grace and mercy. Stand tall survivors of horror, of torture, of abuses....you are warriors...with the strength and courage of a thousand soldiers...what you have endured has grafted a mighty strength within, and a grace and mercy and compassion for others that shines so brightly it lights up the space you walk in, everywhere you go...

I'm so proud of you today and every day for getting up, getting dressed, and meeting the day with a smile. Each step brings you closer and closer to the life you were meant for. A life of joy, of peace, and most importantly a life of love worthy of the queen you are. Worthy one...walk in His peace, in His grace...for you are loved beyond measure.