Moments...

The sky is crystal clear, stars beginning to fade as dawn approaches...mist lays low upon freshly harvested fields covering bovine and equine alike, creating a picture of rare beauty as cow and calf appear and disappear amongst fingerlike waves of fog.

It is a rare morning of beauty and it brings me back, steadies mind, heart and spirit as tires hit pavement; massive moose panting with excitement in the back seat. He knows we are headed out to paradise and somehow blessed enough to get paid to do so. Hourly walks, treats for being a good boy, and plenty of belly rubs.

Truly, as I oh so slowly age I find more beauty in simplicity, I find contentment with less though I have enough to have more. I find grace in every kind word spoken, I find Gods heart in even the roughest and gruffest of men on site.

I cannot say I have arrived to my destination, to my dreams, goals and aspirations, however, I am well on my way spiritually, mentally, emotionally.

I do not know where this road will lead but I am no longer worried, no longer seeking signs and portents. I know without a shadow of doubt that God is able, always able to perform miracles and guide my steps. Trust comes hard, but God...I have often said I will proclaim His goodness from the rooftops, tell of His mighty deeds, His grace and mercy.

This is my rooftop...or one of them.

I have survived horrors, terrors, torturous moments best left without detail...it is these moments that have shown me clearly, so clearly, I am not alone. Never alone, never forsaken or abandoned.

This gift is what God offers to every person...the gift of grace, the gift of love and mercy, and the utmost gift of His presence. I've felt it, seen evidence of it staying the hand of a murderer (dave ponte) bent on silencing his rage through my demise.

Never alone...

I pray you hear my heart this morning dear treasures...my greastest wish is to educate yes, but more importantly to share this message of hope; that you have a Father who loves you so completely, so unreservedly that it defies description. I know without a shadow of a doubt that the reason I sit this morning with hot cup of heaven in hand and a life of peace, is due to God's intervention.

I sit this morning writing, breathing, doing, being, and finding my way due to His protection.

I sit this morning with a heart and spirit on the mend through His love, and the love shown by forever friends, family, and a son who always loves, and the out-of-left-field love shown by strangers I like to call 'new friends.'

All placed to surround in love and support...a hand upon the shoulder, a hand in mine, a hug that drives all breath from lungs...oh my friends, it is beautiful the miracles of love, grace and mercy I have seen and experienced.

Often I sit meditating and tears of gratitude track down my cheeks...

Psalm 9:1-2

"I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High". 

There is hope to be had though circumstances would dictate otherwise...

There is love to be found though circumstances would show otherwise...

There is grace and mercy, compassion and understanding to be found, though the pit be dark and full of danger and monsters.

I pray today for your path to be made clear, for unlimited courage to take that step away from madness and darkness into light.

May your feet be steady, your faith be strong...may God make His face to shine upon you today and evermore, keeping you safe and a guiding light to show the way.