Personal...

It becomes personal...when criticisms or judgements are given in a joking manner, when put-downs, call-downs, mocking words are explained away as being silly...it is uncanny how original these people believe they are; in their speech, in their actions...when in truth the same words, tones and facial expressions become eerily similar and easily spotted...

The elitist attitude of superiority cannot hide under camouflage for long before the need to prove the belief to those around them for any length of time. Better, smarter, higher than, greater than...

I sit this morning and stare at the words on the screen and wonder where this came from...some days my friends the words just pour forth...It has been a journey these past weeks and loss has indelibly marked upon my brain perspective, wisdom and a shining light on grey areas, highlighting and showcasing parts that need uplifting, rearranging and re-thinking.

I am reminded of true friendship...real love and what it looks like...I stood among so many people and viewed the love of a father for his children...not perfect, no...but willing and able to learn, to grow, to change.

I stood among so many with the same heart of grief in different stages...stunned silence, overwhelming grief making itself heard and silent tears running out of eyes bruised with sorrow. I did not stand alone...

I pray you hear my heart this morning dear hearts, dear treasures all....there is a life of joy, of peace, of grace and mercy waiting on the other side of fear...on the other side of that mountain standing in your way...there is love that does not demand, does not demean...while we may be human and prone to err, we may fail but we get up and try again...this is the normal human existence...

Everyday abuses are not accidental dear friends, far from it. After a time we wake to prison walls already built as high as the eye can see...stuck...brainwashed to believe we are no good, useless and stuck when nothing could be further from the truth. Lies my friends, lies keep you in the pit...daily, weekly, monthly force fed lies disguised as truth until you no longer know which way is up, which is down...

Let truth be your guide...let that light shine bright and take it in...acceptance is the hardest first step...acknowledging that you are but a pawn in the game and not truly loved, accepted or cherished....'in many ways, pawns are the most basic and fundamental chessmen in the entire game. Though pawns may seem unassuming, pawn strategy and placement can often be the difference between winning and losing a game of chess.'

You see, while we should be treated as Queens and Kings, we are used as pawns to build their self image back up, for the supply of attention and adoration....

May truth ride with you, but most importantly may you be given grace and courage in abundance to accept and to believe in your worth, your goodness and love...

May you see and know your worth in every relationship...and stand tall, walk proud and speak your truth kindly, gently but with confidence in every situation...it's ok to do so, truly.

God be with you today dear friends, as you move and navigate through life...as you deal with times of grief, of sorrow...as you struggle with getting out of bed in the morning, as you doggedly and determinedly greet each day and say 'I will make it, I will live in joy and peace everyday.'

God bless you richly with love and compassion, with a sense of your worth, of what you bring to the table as opposed to the filth of regret, remorse...as opposed to the beat downs, anger, rage and unhappiness of the person sitting beside you...

You bring peace...they bring fear...

You bring loving kindness...they bring discord and hate...

You bring clarity of thought....they bring confusion and chaos....

You, dear lost ones, are a light set upon a mountain....a light that has been dimmed by disuse, abuse, neglect, betrayal and discord....

May you find your way free and live with love, with peace, with grace....stand tall dear hearts, stand tall and know your worth...you are loved with an incomparable love, an endless love free of torment, of conditions...loved and accepted right where you stand today, wherever that is....walk free dear treasures...walk, run, crawl right out of that pit and into freedom.