Sanity...

Sanity amid the insane...peace alongside the chaotic...grace and mercy within the storm...

"When I should've lost my mind

You showed up right on time

Carried me through the valley

All the way on the other side

When pain tried to take my joy

That's when I felt You more

Now I've gotta testify

God you kept my heart alive

I didn't know if I'd survive

I gave up so many times

You kept my heart alive"

Chandler Moore - Maverick City Music

When all round me was drought, famine in a land of plenty, scarred furrows marking the passage of time, delineating moments of peace from war times that bring you to your knees, You were there holding on to me, keeping feet firmly planted no matter how many times I was knocked to the ground.

You kept my heart alive...sluggish and slow or beating in time as frantic as a rabbits in flight for their lives...no matter where, when, how, I felt the Hand of God preserving, keeping, loving me in each moment, whispering promises of freedom and escape from a prison not of my own making.

'When pain tried to take my joy...That's when I felt you more.'

At our lowest possible moments you stand fast, you accompany us to the bowels of Hades...into the darkest night you keep pace with, surrounding with love, with grace, with courage to meet another day.

We are never alone my friends...if we only look, see, reflect within and without we begin to see others falling along the same type of path...we come to an awareness of a Creator all about.

We blindly, happily, stumble along unaware of the pitfalls, the traps awaiting down the road...the planned betrayals, the raging fists of fury, the verbal barrages...

Sadly dear treasures, we are very much the rule instead of the exception...

Reach a hand out to the left or to the right and you will find a kindred spirit...isolation is a primary tool of the abuser for they know their power lies in securing your silence, in coercing your acceptance, in persuading you of the love it shows. In fact this is to keep you unaware, unknowledgeable and confused.

Knowledge is power, friends keep us grounded and accountable; these outside influences may upset the pot they have so diligently placed you in.

The internet is full of knowledge...they craftily and insidiously keep you from that as well...oh you know of what I speak dear lost ones...guilt, manipulation and control are used for anything that would clue you in to the wrong-ness, the absolute evil they are slowly but surely committing upon your person, within your mind and crushing the joyful, ebullient spirit you brought to the table.

Seek it out...wisely, safely...but seek it out my friends...seek knowledge and then hold it close until it takes root and frees you from the lies and deceit pouring from the mouth of the monster.

Everything said is fully opposite...you ARE capable, worthy, lovely and wanted...you ARE loved and accepted and cherished...you are NONE of those ugly, cruel, misogynistic words they speak over you, heaping rubbish upon rubbish on your head.

Lies meant to steal away your sanity until they are the sole sun you revolve round and words of hope, peace, love and life leach away into the distance.

Stand strong friends...wobbly first steps are par for the course and they count...they require a strength that seems to leave you exhausted...

You are pushing against conditioning, brain washing, and mind manipulation performed by someone who has spent decades perfecting their deceitful evil craft.

Stand...walk...crawl... and remember no matter what is said to you, over you, about you, you are, in fact, quite worthy of love, of kindness, of mercy and grace...always.