Spring....

Spring is in the air...and in my step....

This morning for the first time in a long time, after the initial fear and dread upon waking at 0430, I felt an excitement for the near future. Oh...I still have hurdles to jump, no...crawl over...and rivers to cross but I finally feel an excitement for the future.

Old things are being left behind, drop-kicked to the curb...facing forward I take in some deep breaths and sense a shift within...like the shifting of gears, slipping into place...at the moment perhaps there is grinding...clunking instead of well-oiled sliding into proper grooves...but it is shifting, it is movement...clarity and calmness are slowly returning.

But the path of the just is as the shining light, That shineth more and more unto the perfect day. Proverbs 4:18

Dear hearts...it does get better....instead of everyday feeling as though the weight of the worlds pressing down on your chest, it ever so slowly recedes into the darkness where it belongs...where it should reside with the evil that pressed you down into the pit, flattening your view of the universe, narrowing it until all you could see was their flame, their light guiding the way...into more and into less.

Less love...less financial security....less choices... More shaming and blaming...more sorrow and sadness.

Amidst the sporadic moments of laughter and lightness....poison, meant to harm and debilitate....crumbs laid to lead you into complacency, into obedience.

Isn't it time you believed in you again? Believed in the good in the world...

Isn't it time you healed and found yourself whole once more? You are worthy of peace..of calm adult conversations with resolution...

Isn't it time you believed in something more than the space you occupy to only satisfy the person in your life? You are worthy of respect...worthy of being heard and seen...worthy.

Live large survivors...live large. Life is all too short...too short to continue in a space that only allows living small, living huddled within yourself.

Speak softly...walk with grace and dignity....but speak. Speak your truth...