The Mind....

The mind is a funny place....no matter how old you are or hope to be; a picture, a song or sound, a particular scent...can take you back in an instant. Transported back to childhood, to a moment that has you grieving once more, missing the person you loved so very much.

This morning, for me, it was the smell of coffee and a fleeting impression of my mom...a feeling of her presence and her love for me...never ending, unfailing and long suffering.

I am so incredibly thankful that she is not here to see the circumstances of the last 3 years and the pain of knowing that history had repeated itself.

Another court appearance yesterday for the abuser and another adjournment to a later date for arraignment. The justice system is a warped wheel of rules, laws, unquestioned methods and awkward jargon. Navigating a system that has settled heavily on the side of caution in regards to the rights of the criminal is daunting, off-putting and beyond frustrating.

'Mercy to the guilty is cruelty to the innocent...' Adam Smith (1723-1790)

And so...I miss my mom....

I miss her hugs...her laugh...her silliness and eccentricities...I miss her wisdom and fortitude of spirit...her love and absolute acceptance of family and friends, and complete strangers...her disregard for the dirty parts of life as this was just a part of everyones existence and it was up to her to help clean it up...

I miss her ability to comfort with a word or a soft touch...

I miss her....

If you are blessed to have your mama still on this earth...I hope you call her....tell her how much you love and appreciate her...

the regret of not having more time is a very real ache that never leaves the one left behind...so make that call, spend that time with your loved ones and if they frustrate the hell out of you, remember that many no longer have those moments to spend anymore....

Go in grace dear hearts....go in love and forgiveness....go in kindness, in compassion...

Walk out your life of freedom and do not give up on hope, do not give up on the dreams, goals and plans that live in the deepest part of your souls.....

You have the strength of warriors singing in your veins.....