White as Snow...

Ahhh the white stuff and fluff....falling from the sky and coating everything in sight....it covers all and bathed in the bright light of the moon takes on a sparkling diamond quality...I am reminded this morning of the love of God that blankets all sin, that forgives and takes in all who would seek change, seek new life, seek new eyes to see...

We are so blessed my friends to have an everlasting Love that never changes, only nudges and guides and speaks to our hearts as we go through life picking our way with care or throwing all to the four winds and plunging into something different, something new.

It is always there, waiting patiently...always.

My heart this morning dear hearts remains quiet....it is the quiet of deep thought, of change, of readiness for what life brings with an overlaying, blanketing peace that passes all understanding...

Grief slams us to the ground with force and puts its heel to our neck, holding us down for a time...it is not for always, not for always no....eventually the heel comes off and we stutter and stammer and sob until one day we sit up and cry and look blearily around at surroundings once again unfamiliar...a piece is missing from the puzzle you see and while it will come back, its shadow, its presence lays in place...we carry it with us, carry them with us...a piece of them exists in us and takes the place of their physical presence, hovering in place wherever we may go, until one day we find ourselves standing in place looking around in amazement as we have finally found our feet under us...looking down at those feet we see them moving, see our mouth speaking, our heart feeling once more and stand struck with bewilderment and surprise...

God is good dear treasures....our heart heals slowly, but it heals as God takes us through the land of sorrow...no matter where that sorrow comes from, whether from loss or from toxic, abusive circumstances...

When we step out in faith and hope for a better world, a life filled with peace and harmony we will find healing, we will find purpose...it is a natural step in the right direction...

We quite literally step out blind...eyes blurred and clouded with torment, with fear an overwhelming blanket of sightlessness...this is faith dear treasures...ah such faith to step out and away and trust that you will be caught up in arms of love and comfort...

I ran...and ran straight into comfort...ah my friends, every nerve ending exposed and open...

Even comfort at that point can feel tremendously staggering for someone escaping a torturous situation...it's different, calming, soothing but while it is the complete opposite to what you escaped, it can be formidable to someone running for their life...

You see my friends...it holds up a mirror to the life you have led up to that point....revealing all the idiosyncrasies...all the toxic behaviours in bright, shiny technicolour...the enormity of your life to that point is suddenly exposed...shockingly exposing how truly horrible that time with your abuser really was.

Patience...loving kindnesses...compassion all work towards catching victims/survivors as they fall to the grief and anger and confusion...fall to the realization of the evil nature living within the one they loved, in the one who professed to love you even while using fists to keep you in line...

You see the dichotomy of the true nature of toxic relationships? This is but a small portion dear friends....and so we ask for continued patience, for long suffering as each one finds their way to level ground, to accepting peace as real, to allowing compassion and love to find them where they are...

Go with God today dear dear lost ones...and know your worth...know it, taste it, feel it and see that it is good....worthy of love, of kindness, of considerate behaviours...of upholding and uplifting...yes, you...always...no matter where you are and no matter what you feel you may have done that puts you in the class of losers...that term belongs to the toxic one in your life who has inputted lies to your mind for far too long....

You...are....worthy...

Always....

Know your worth...walk in it...stand tall in it...walk with head held high queens and kings....