Worth...

Nothing to prove....just love, acceptance....and more love....the battle waged and fought for you long ago....

Everyday I wake with gratefulness, with thankfulness overlaying the past, overlaying the hurt..the shame...the pain...every moment spent in God's handiwork, I sigh with relief, with grace and mercy I walk out my days...the beauty eclipsing and overcoming the sh*tstorm that encapsulated my life for far too long. Stepping away...running for my life, for love, for physical and mental health...glorious peace, fabulous freedom...walking out of a life I had falsely imagined, falsely believed... to a life built on faith, on love...despite the fears, despite the anxiety and overwhelming sorrow, at first running...then slowing to a walk taking in my surroundings with wonder, with awe for the miracles that I witness each and every day...feeling the healing happening in amongst the sorrow, the loss of precious things...learning to let go and let God...re-learning to breathe, to live...

Dear hearts...pushing past the unhinged fear, past the grief and the sense of displacement, will bring you to peace, to joy...to a life untouched by evil...

Pushing past the expectations built upon by the one who promised the moon, the stars only to inflict pain, to play with your emotions, to steal your shiny...your joy...God knows my friends...oh He sees you, weeps for you, arms outstretched in comfort...gathering you in, enfolding you in an everlasting love. Rest in Him...find your peace, your joy....you will find the person inside that had to hide for so long....rescue that broken down spirit, that flayed mind and soul and bring you to a fullness of joy, to a peace that passes all understanding.

You are...flesh and blood, real and necessary...you belong on this planet, right where you are...you are loved where you stand...dirty and damaged though you may feel, the broken places within taking up so much space you hardly know where to look, where to step, where to move....one tiny step at a time my friends. That path you see...littered with refuse, with broken pieces, with monsters at every turn....is a lie. Take that first step, then the second and see new ground spring up under your feet...like the turning of fragrant soil, the weeds and rocks disappear...new life materializing before your stunned eyes. The monsters shrinking back, crawling back under the rocks and into the deep dark holes they emerged from.

There is life waiting for you...a good life, a life full of joy and singing....away from the hell, up and away from the pit you were thrown into, pushed into....have courage dear hearts, this is not the end, it is only the beginning.

Go with God today and everyday and know His plans for you are so grand....

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

You are loved my friends....stand tall and walk with courage and grace, speaking your truth bravely...warriors all.